This past week, my family and I were cleaning out one of our barns- dusting, getting rid of cobwebs, sweeping, etc. It was one of the first really warm days we've had in a while. Therefore, wasps who had turned this building into their Winter dwelling were just starting to wake up and emerge. As soon as they were able to fly, they went directly to one of the many windows.
The problem is, those windows are all screened. The wasps were grabbing into the screen, looking for a way to get out and go about their business... But there wasn't a way out. They could see outside into the sunlight, see the grass and sky and trees and budding flowers. But they couldn't quite reach it. Nevertheless, they kept trying.
If the wasps had let go of the screen and flown around the building, exploring a bit, they'd find the wide open doorway and be able to free themselves and enjoy the outdoors. But through the window was the only way they could see to get out, and so that was the only way they wanted to go.
Forgive me if this "wasp metaphor" is a little too weird, but in all honesty... I kind of relate to the wasps. I have a hard time letting go of plans; if I find a way to do something, that's the way I want to do it. I don't want to explore other more difficult/scary/unknown courses of action. I like the plan and I like sticking to what I know.
But, when I can talk myself into letting go of "the screen"... the "door" is usually so much better than I could have even imagined. Harder, yes, sometimes. Not always as familiar... sometimes I feel like I'm groping my way through a dark room. But, in the end... It's usually worth it.
If you're in kind of a "dead end" place right now, clinging to your "screen" because you're scared to look for your "door"... Letting go is freeing. Changing the plan is hard. Exploring a new way to get something done can be rewarding.
And believe me, I know it's often terrifying. But I find that when I look up from a situation, glance around, reevaluate, and keep myself open to possibilities other than what I can see right now... It usually works out okay in the end. Better, even.
Thanks for reading, guys, and good luck with your "screens". <3
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.